~~A renewed Life~ A nEw heart, to run for~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~`

..the moment

2008-12-30T05:00:00.004+08:00

Somewhere in nowhere, a voice was heard.
Crying out like a newborn child, seeking for this something
No one understand, no one knew
Emptiness filled the air

Within seconds, silence sank in.
Time stood still
Images flashes pass

Emotions surges out from this empty heart
Fear hit the place

A cry for a longing, a cry for a desire
A cry for a new vision, a cry for a new birth

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back...

2008-09-28T06:28:00.003+08:00

sometimes, its more than just what u know and what u have done
sometimes, its all about moving on
What happens if u fail the first and second time?
fear engulfed u many folds
Whenever u embarked it the 2nd time, you thought, alright, now it will be better.I 've learnt my mistakes from the first,
but , never did you know, you failed again

Looking at heroes sometimes, the way they are, failing many times, still having the courage to stand up and move on
credits and respect to them

It does really take a whole lot of courage to really stand strong when it happens twice
you never know, you never did , til you tried.
How far you tried, how long it can last, depends on how great one has for that
Faith, a substance of things hope for and a prove of the things not seen
From one dimension, its illogical , From another, it is of higher form, a higher level of thoughts that one would need to really fathom how it works
like the natural, it is governed by laws. Laws that keep these going.
"What u see is what u have"

----Stand strong in who you are, --------keep pressing in ...

You nEvRer Know

2008-06-16T03:30:00.003+08:00

You never know til you try.
How hard you try will determine how hard you might fall.
Sometimes, things are just better not to try. If you wanna play with fire, you got to prepare an extinguisher beforehand. It may hard to prepare for you may not know where to get the extinguisher.

Life of the unknown, where all else are falling apart, where all things seems to come against who you are, where things that is not cause by you but may be the repercussions of the past, and everything and all else engulf you, where can you look to?
Left, right, front and back are all surrounded. Rest assured there is always up.
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You may say that it's my fault, nevertheless, blame it all on me. Truth may not be revealed, but what's apparent may seem to everyone is true. I may not comprehend the way you think about all this, causing a big who-ha which may have been circling around your circle of friends. And everyone believe tt is true and there isnt a chance to make a concrete judgement. -----leading to there isnt a point to judge anyway since there is a chance to speak. All i would say is let it be. There's nth I can do. If you want to be in this way, so be it.
Somehow or rather, the truth will prevail.
If someone is out there to be a judge so be it. Concurrently, another happens. Being accused for sth that it is not true and that it never did happen. rather i would say to that blackmailer, "all the best in whatever you are doing , and a take care"
All the happen, all i can do is just look up.
There is so much, so much more.
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You never know, you never did.
Coming, shall run back
Stop walking and start running
It's time, time to stand up and run
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Dumbfounded, speechless,tongue-tied,
Speechless
There isnt a word, a word to describe
This immense emotions, like a surging wave
Surging in this human, weakened heart
With limitless thoughts
Running through the mind, where you do not where you should start
.................
Here I would say, I look up to u, never turning back, like a prodigal son, enough..
time to run back, enough, lifting up my hands, here, I am all surrender.
Complicated as it is, only you can understand and no one else
Your love the surpasees all understanding engulf my soul
So here I am , hands lifted, I surrender, used by you, and you only from now..............
~~~~peace out~~~~

~~LiFe~to live, to move on~nutured,grown and moved

2008-04-16T01:05:00.004+08:00

Sometimes i dont actually know how should i really live this life. Looking through the events of this world, comparing the both cultures of which intersection hardly could take place; sometimes, where questions of morality and life as it is seems prevailing as though it never end, what should you really do?
Learning to balance is one of the keys to live a fruitful, beautiful life. However, the difficulty comes when u really want to balance4 your life yet, temptations at time is so great that u allowed yourself to succumb by it like a suction force from a vacuum cleaner. Never did u know, just like a flick of fingers, u had made a deadly serious mistakes in your life. You tried turning to left and right, u find no way out.
The feeling of a failure and guilt overwhelm u as though there isn't any way out and u feel like a damn loser in life. Once you may thought u had overcome, never did u know u allowed the temptation within to rule over your life.--making it to a life greatest mistakes kinda stuff.

have u ever wonder all the questions that due with " if only .." kinda questions, hoping that if something u wish nver happen ? Whenever you look back, you just hope that if only time could turn back.
As the matter of fact that time could not be reversed, we allowed ourselves to feel like a loser. We dont really wanna think of what had happened.
Ultimately, whats done is done. Learning to move on is hard but is the one key to live life to the best.Being based your faith on a higher authority to lead your life and that there is still someone out there to care and concern for you, being able to based ur trust totally to live life once again be it no matter whatever mistakes u have made and that you willing to let go and not commit the same mistake again.
It is one thing to commit a mistake and learn from the mistake to be a better and more knowledgeable person, it is another thing to commit a mistake and had it commit again and again.

From here, i shall move on. I shall lift it to the higher authority greater than I am. I shall not do that again, entrusting it, being based on the faith that I have that all things will not go backward even if i have commit a mistake, and that everything will turn out good and better as long as i run back to Him and not repeating my mistake again.

Strength i would ask.

--Isaiah_-

a new life

2008-02-25T01:02:00.002+08:00

I walked out the door, a new life. Seemed so real, different from the apparent. Emotions surged, memories flowed in. Never had I imagined this wonder. The amazement dazzled.
"Wow...." still clueless ,whats gonna happen?
the next moment, everything darkened. Where am i? I wondered.
Within seconds, a bright, dazzling,striking white light shone forth. The whole entire place changes in its atmosphere. Everything doesnt seemed to make sense. but........
I ponder....

Seems....but still unseen

2008-02-12T00:48:00.000+08:00

A world of shame and sorrows, replaced by this great agape of the one who laid down, with life so great, love showered over the mankind of those even the hardened of hearts
Somethings amiss, lost, confuse when you feel in the midst of emptiness, being lost in eternity, where you desire for something that doesnt exist. But yet, you know you somehow its somewhere, and again, you do not know.
Tied with the pace of life, moving to life where things changes like a flick of fingers,and all that it happens just happened before you even realised. Immersed with fears of whats not known, wondering how life ever could be, yet holding on to a hope, though it may be frail, but somehow, its there.

Haunted by consequences yet held on, wavered and struck , yet still holding on. To this hope,never giving up.

Music calms a humans soul
Expressed in a way of lyrics is the nature of the one being at that moment, at which moods and emotions are expressed.

Holding back, back to the days ..

A few quotes :

Losing an illusion makes you wiser than finding a truth. ~Ludwig Börne

Men are probably nearer the central truth in their superstitions than in their science. ~Henry David Thoreau]

Each forward step we take we leave some phantom of ourselves behind. ~John Lancaster Spalding

Seeking is not always the way to find. ~Augustus William Hare and Julius Charles Hare, Guesses at Truth, by Two Brothers, 1827

To believe with certainty we must begin with doubting. ~Stanislaus I of Poland

A stumble may prevent a fall. ~English Proverb

Do not seek to follow in the footsteps of the wise. Seek what they sought. ~Matsuo Basho

-----------some food for thought above -----------------

a word in season may not be ripe until its proven and tested it is truly ripe.

Likewise

a seed, deemed to be good, may not be til it is proven and tested.

when all else comes meaningless

2007-12-23T18:21:00.000+08:00

when all that you think of, all that you do, all comes to meaningless
when all else fades, does these matters after all?
questions seems unanswered,yet doesnt seems to matter. Going through motions of living, fighting for this day,living for what seems not real, all seems to comes to no point and of no meaning.
All that matters, does it really matters? Is it really that important after all?

----------------keep it real--------------
ali G

What does it takes? Whats next?

2007-12-14T01:09:00.000+08:00

A man walk, fall, picked up
on bended knees, lifted hands
All that it matters comes to an end
All else fades, just the one and all that it happens

So , whats next?

A word in due season, likened a seed in fertile ground. Through tough times, as that seed breaks down, sprout grew.Going through the four seasons, holding on to what it matters.Soon, turning to tree, bearing fruit.
In its process, weeds appeared. Holding on, it move on, let go, and grow.
After that tree bear fruits, what's next?

A common saying,"Everything happens for a reason"
Some asked, whats the reason man?
Questions does one always have.Whats next after you got all your questions answered?
Knowledge and wisdom does make one's life miserable.So does one w/o it. Reversible.Contradicting.
Perspective matters again.

There isnt any direct answer to all parts of life.Complicity of one shall faced, holding by itself from the foundations one had built and moving on.

I do always believe there is always something more to whats apparent. Some things are just so superficial and that all that it comes forth adds no value.

Things evolve. So does humans and society. Evolution, from one point of view does takes place, which can be positive.Naturally, i dont agree it take place. From another realm , in fact it does. In terms of thoughts, ideas and emotions.
Look around, compare yourself when u were young and the youths these days.

What does it takes? To move on ? Not to lose one soul yet living it to the fullest?

perceiving, understanding
Never did one realise
it has ended
Gone

faded, yet unshaken
torn down, building
shaken, darts on every side
letting go, moving on

When all else fades, shall I dance
Attacks from every side, hands lifted
Shouting the praise of truimph
to the One who helped
shall i not neglect

---just huMans--

2007-12-03T02:04:00.000+08:00

Us, being humans, are wierd at times and irrational on other times
Miscommunications, misunderstandings , misjudgement= all by humans
Wrong impressions ..
Humans can never be a good judge for we can never know the intent of the human soul

Seems scary at times .
I do , trusting on a higher realm of invisibility for that is whats unseen , always superceed whats seen.
Everything of what's seens behind on a higher bais of what's unseen. (eg. the world we live in now, is in the mind of the builder before it is being built in a particular way) There's no limit to our mind to what we think and it aint stop by any time factor in our imagination thus i would propose this fact our mind exist on this higher realm. (could be this fifth dimension)

Can laws and systems be perfect in any way?
Is there really a perfect law and systems to follow?

Isaiah

The day
Of where it started
Finally ended
Where it should stop

the course, the path and the race

2007-12-02T01:46:00.000+08:00

Behind every history, there's always a story to tell. A mistake for one to learn from that past and to celebrate the joy that one's achievement. But that process, the pain that one undergone, determines the success or the failure that one would have.
Sometimes in life, how we want turn back time and not make any mistakes, to be able to have a perfect track record and that everyone will look up to as a somebody. Sometimes, us being humans are so judgement of an individual.
The course of one's race,
the journey of what's set forth,
the pathway, to the unknown,
to what one yet to be.

Histories as histories as to what done can never be changed,humans as judgemental,sometimes misunderstand certain incident of that one of all that had happen based on the past.
What those may not know are the values that one had acquired through that course of histories yet unrevealed to some. To one, the faith and perserverance that he had on the higher being, may be haunted by the course of his histories. Sometimes, it affects that individual emotionally, causing that one to lose and become paranoid and hard to move on; as to that due to one's past deeds or wrong choices, thus resulting in post consequences. Nevertheless, its about letting go.
Letting go is a power choice one had to made at times to move on to greater things.
Letting go, allows you to be focus and thus becoming you to be effective as an individual.

Embedded fears, overwhelmed
Hard to move, stuck in somewhere
Paralysed, needing a miracle
One thing I would ask, pray

Walking , not falling
Fell, get up and walk
slowly but surely
Run.
Never may you realise
Fly
Soaring higher
Higher that all had seen, heard known
Glory of the ONE shall flow
Flowing...

How true is that that eyes had not seen, ears had not hear and mind had not known whats stored from the higher realm, the invisible where time is non existence as this sets the lower dimensions and all that is in it.
Fifth dimension to some would say to sets the fourth dimensions where existence of angels and spirits set forth and time could be its limitations and there sets our third dimension ...

Be unknowingly known
Seen yet not seen
heard yet not heard
understood yet to be understood

Glory to the One./..

signing off: Isaiah

A dream--quite cool though

2007-11-27T06:39:00.000+08:00

Am tired, as usual.

Had a dream a while ago from my nap. Quite cool though. Take great hardwork and wisdom to achieve.Thats where rationalism takes place where all that it seems are too impossible.

How creative can an individual be to dream of unachievable things, but however taking small steps at a time to achieve it?

Turning a dream to a vision is a process and from a vision to reality is another hurdle to cross.

Interestingly, things are functioned in a way that everything begins with a seed (which it the things you see in your mind), where that seed germinates,(in which the process in building that dream comes ) and slowly seed dies and sprouts. A stalk begin to grow and become a stem and leaves grow then bear its fruit.

It amaze me that all the is around us seems to found a either give a value or form a picture of a greater things.

"Likened a rat running the wheel in the small container where we keep our rats as pets, so are those who ae stuck in the small box of life call world, running this wheel of neverending race call life, where all else come to an end of what one seems to be- meaningless "

race of life ...and a story shall begin to those...

sign off UC

isaiah's holdings =D

All that it matters

2007-11-25T15:25:00.000+08:00

What's matters most to you?
A question to one soul that one may not know in his conscious mind.I would say it all come to meaningless if all that matters is just to do what you want in life.
As i was looking through the lyrics of "Where is the love" by black eye peas,

Where Is The Love?by Black Eyed Peas
Album :Elephunk (2003)

[What's wrong with the world, mama
People livin' like they ain't got no mamas
I think the whole world addicted to the drama
Only attracted to things that'll bring you trauma
Overseas, yeah, we try to stop terrorism
But we still got terrorists here livin' In the USA, the big CIA
The Bloods and The Crips and the KKK
But if you only have love for your own race
Then you only leave space to discriminate
And to discriminate only generates hate
And when you hate then you're bound to get irate, yeah
Madness is what you demonstrate
And that's exactly how anger works and operates
Man, you gotta have love just to set it straight
Take control of your mind and meditate
Let your soul gravitate to the love, y'all, y'all

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek
Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above'
Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love The love, the love

It just ain't the same, always unchanged
New days are strange, is the world insane
If love and peace is so strong
Why are there pieces of love that don't belong
Nations droppin' bombs
Chemical gasses fillin' lungs of little ones
With ongoin' sufferin' as the youth die young
So ask yourself is the lovin' really gone
So I could ask myself really what is goin' wrong
In this world that we livin' in people keep on givin'in
Makin' wrong decisions, only visions of them dividends
Not respectin' each other, deny thy brother
A war is goin' on but the reason's undercover
The truth is kept secret, it's swept under the rug
If you never know truth then you never know love
Where's the love, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the truth, y'all, come on (I don't know)
Where's the love, y'all

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek
Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above'
Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the loveThe love, the love

I feel the weight of the world on my shoulder
As I'm gettin' older, y'all, people gets colder
Most of us only care about money makin'
Selfishness got us followin' our wrong direction
Wrong information always shown by the media
Negative images is the main criteria
Infecting the young minds faster than bacteria
Kids wanna act like what they see in the cinema
Yo', whatever happened to the values of humanity
Whatever happened to the fairness in equality
Instead in spreading love we spreading animosity
Lack of understanding, leading lives away from unity
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' under
That's the reason why sometimes I'm feelin' down
There's no wonder why sometimes I'm feelin' under
Gotta keep my faith alive till love is found
Now ask yourself
Where is the love?
Where is the love?
Where is the love?
Where is the love?

People killin', people dyin'
Children hurt and you hear them cryin'
Can you practice what you preach
And would you turn the other cheek

Father, Father, Father help us
Send some guidance from above'
Cause people got me, got me questionin'
Where is the love (Love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)
Where is the love (The love)

I was thinking how true that is happening? Truely all that describe is an description of a slight image of the end times.
Just cant imagine how people can only know how to care for themselves and yet didnt know what's happening to the people around them. If all that you want matters to you dearly after all?

.................."the" day........(PART 1)...........

2007-11-08T01:49:00.000+08:00

The long awaited day has arrived
this special day, at that particular,unexplanable moment
fullness of joy, fulfillment, regrets, hope, excitement
immersed in one heart, all , right at that time
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Looking back, the first day i had
uncertainties, fears, being not hopeful
that day, concidentally, full of hope, expectancy, faith
of what to be and what will be

Tedious will I say to be
Moment of joy in broken pieces
What may seem to be, yet not be
The cause of everything yet to be discovered

Going through the unknown land,
likened a lost sheep searching for its shepherd
In togetherness, good and bad times
To be someone yet a nobody

This island, full of memories
Was a boy, became a man
On that island, life has begun
the expedition of naiveness

Moving on to something new
a new training phase to begin
a hope i still hold on to
To be someone yet a nobody

New friends, new buddies
good and bad times once again
had no idea the cause of one
seeking for something yet to be found

AT that moment...

Wonder what life could be , how it should be for the rest of the 19mths

Never giving up, never gonna let it go
That dream, that vision and hope
Time and time again
To look forward to another phase

This new phase began, hope was totally gone
an area likened WW2, hope seemed to go amiss
To be somebody yet nobody, was true indeed, indeed
time to dream again, time to fly again

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Til that moment, changes happen
Naive am I, "noob" some may call
entering to the "unknown", darkened
stuck, immobile, turning oneself likened a fast moving ferris wheel

A new experience one may call
A new joy one may pursue
Deep inside one soul, there is something more
More than what it is apparent

Superficial it may seem
Just the outward, one would judge
Never did one realise its consequences
Never did one comprehend that full meaning

Likened a fallen angel, beautiful, attractive
Forever luring , tempting
Whats inside is what hard to comprehend
Never will one realise till it happen

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To laugh or to cry
To seek or let it happen
To pursue it or lay back
To dream again, to fly again

A new purpose for that moment
A new passion fired up
A new desire to run to
A new course of direction to turn

A specialist, here am I
A pathetic schedule where hardly there's "life"
What much can I do, what more to look for
To dream again, to fly again

Regrets, hurts encompassed my soul
"WHat ifs?" are the only question I could ask
All the whys cause further disappointments
"Whats next?" I wonder

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Contradictions, is that one's life now
on the crossroad of where he stood
Fighting against the formulated nature in his soul
Leading to confusion, hopeless as he become

Fallen, taken aback , picked up
fallen deeper, sunk to the oceans
sucked up by sharks found
wondering whats happen next

Fought, defeated right straight at the face
Struggled, still struggling
waves coming against all over
A question for a reason

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Back again -----

A specialist I have become,
Whether good or bad i couldnt judge
A taste of freedom soon began
Unrevealed secrets of the unknown

What one would say the life of a specialist?
Fun? too hopeful to that one
How fun can it get when times all else come against you?
When things dont turn out the way you wish it would be

Likened a child crying for help
Likened a blind seeking for a vision
Likened a deer longing for water
So is that soul shall be

For one year, another phase had begun,
A year where everything falls apart
that the truth of oneself revealed
that, life has come to another phase

........to be continue...............

Moving on./..

2007-11-08T00:59:00.000+08:00

Looking forward, a life yet to be accomplished yet not.
Joy that's set forth, burning within one soul, yet not
How a life be when all it matters is just himself?
A pursuit for pleasure, fame and glory?

It may come to a point that all it matters its meaningless.
Without purpose, pleasure for that moment, just seem worthless
All it matters, comes to a point, just a man with himself
With one soul, finding something that is more to living.

One would ask if there is more to living
Is there something more?

A question for the soul to ponder

For This Day

2007-10-13T05:04:00.000+08:00

For this day that one've gone by,
A new day yet awaits,
A new one yet to become,
A renewed man one shall evolved.

Who knows the depth of one's heart?
The truth of one's self?
That lies in the darkest moment,
no mind fathom that truth.

A man, one yet to be
A renew passion that arise
What can this world brings?
Pleasure, fame, fulfillment.

Hope is what yet to be found
Love given yet many didnt treasure
Lost, for a purpose long to pursue
Lust, a power that consumed a being

All that is now, its just a resemblance
Something that yet to come
For great minds to fathom
Wonder if that is for real

Stains left behind,consequences followed
Haunted, consumed one to a loser
Like an eagle after a deer
Forever never giving up

Passion and desire for a renewal
Revelation and vision is what required
Hopes and Love for this cause
A greater being for his soul.

Shall this blog be, a renew one

~~~~A renewed Life~~~ A nEw heart, to run for~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~`